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Monday, March 21, 2011.
some truth was found.i'm unsure if i should feel hurt,should be hating or to laugh out loud.
the feeling of 'love' is in the air for them.
to her,she feels that he's all hers now.
but to him,probably his response were all just for the sake of responding.
a dream was not suppose to be real.
but it was,most of the time for me.
it was such a freaking nightmare,really.
but i was thankful to Allah,for letting me know about it.
way days ago,i've prepared a text for him,
which i'm actually waiting for the right time to send.
however,when this truth was found,
i feel that i can't wait any longer for the right time.
istighfar,was the only thing i kept repeating after knowing the truth.
until now,
yes,currently while typing,
my heart just never want to fail,repeating istighfar.
on prayers too,
praying for his well being,and also hoping that may Allah opens up his heart for me again.
no matter how hurting i may have to go thru,yet i still keep on believing for me and him to be back as usual.
he's always been a part of me.
hopes he feels the same way too abt me.
may he will be aware that i am,and i will,be there for him,doesnt matter where and when.
i'm not being so proud/confident in myself,
but,
may he will be aware that i'm way better as to compare to her.
& may he will be aware that he will still need me by his side in good/difficult times.
Amin.
(only Allah knows what's with the truth.coz i won't detail it in here or to anyone.)