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Sunday, February 13, 2011.
we met this morning.and honestly,i was so nervous as i was on my way meeting him.
i told myself not to show him any hurt-disappointment mood.
thank god,once we met,he seems to be in the ok-mood i guess?
yea..was with 1 of his friend.so maybe thats the reason he could be that way?
(anyway i got the feeling that he's asking his friend to tag along so he could remain his cheerful mood all through out?when instead if he doesnt,it might probably be a silent date or i shall say meet up btween me and him?)
nah..that's a little confusing to think..
so as i was saying,once we met,we make a move and took the train to amk.(since he told me he wants to buy perfume like he usually does and as for me,i need to get a shoe)
so there we went to amk.oh yes,and all along the ride,most of the time i was quiet..yet,i didnt show up my heartbreaking mood la of coz.(since i told myself not to)
which means he's most of the time talking to his friend..well,i dont mind la how long they want to talk..(usually,i will get pissed off la if that happens..but since we're not in gd terms yet,i was quite surprise to myself that i manage not to get pissed! a little yeay there huh..)
so as we move on,things was like normal i guess?yea..we do talk,we do joke ard like how we use to..and of coz,parts of my heart was saying that i really miss those kinda moments man!
haiz..but well,i cant say that to him of coz! for sure he'll get mad since our condition have yet to get better..hmm..
and again..as we move on,things was still ok..the joke ard like how we use to,remains the same..
after amk,we head back to wdlands..then came the part when we are about to depart..
ok wait,on our normal good term days,once we met for the day,i will always salam him.but it doesnt turn out today..haha..i think i was too nervous..
only when we are departing,i did..and like how he always say his last words during our depart, "pape msg"..
then we proceed on our own ways..
haiz..i admit that today's meetup is too short..but atleast he brighten up my day abit?
ohh yes..guess what..apart from the above,some good points i realised..
our ring is still on his finger..the way he communicate to me remains the same..the way he treats me is still almost the same like how he use to..
haiz..so how should i reform everything then..repeatedly i told myself not to put very high hopes..but yet,i cant deny that my love for him remains the same too..infact,much stronger now i guess..hmm..kinda hard to tell the situation now..
well its alright..i really really hope we'll be back as how we use to..
bcos i want him to be my last man..bcos i wouldnt want to start anything new instead of him since 3years its been..
insyaallah,if god's willing..