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Thursday, February 10, 2011.
ku amat menyesali segala yg kini berlaku..jika ia tak berpunca dari diriku sendiri..
walau perit,hatiku tetap ada kamu.
benar ku harus terima apa adanya,
namun jujur juga ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu.
ku tahu,kau tetap dgn kata putus mu.
tiada kuasa yg ku ada selain kuasa dariNya.
semoga Dia masih syg hubungan kita
yg seperti biasa.
//
really i do regret.really really i do.
i know,whats done cannot be undone.
to be honest here;
i, siti nurmai'syah, have been controlling him too much all this while..that now he's sick and tired of everything.and due to that,he's letting off everything.
yes,everything..no love,no heart,no nothing)': not anymore
heres some of what:
him: its my life....u have to just accept the fact...i n u now just fren ok..
me: seriously i cant k b..
him: but i can...
me: thats u b..not me..
him: tis my life...i hv my own right..no 1 can stop me doin anitin....
me: haiz..
him: i dont like ani1 to bother my life animore...even if i go out wif a gal also, dont try 2 sae anitin...i hv notin wif ur life n i wan my life....
me: haiz..
him: now if i want to mit my fren,doesnt matter a guy or gal,i wont hv to think if i can or not..becos no 1 can control animore..
me: ok b..so y can u meet yr fren girl but u cant mit me?i'm yr fren also rite.
him: yes u r but not now...just after u can accept the fact....
me: haiz..
him: now i prefer fooling ard with what i do..but i would not want to hv any feelings to any1 animore..i had enuf..
me: haiz..
him: 1 more thing....learn from ur mistake or u loss ani1 again in future....
me: hm yea i know..
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look..how heartless he is now..he's sick n tired of the way i am to him..i know i'm not like other girls,who would allow the guy to go out with the friends just as they wish..i'm really really sorry abt that dear..
i know theres no point regretting..but yet,i still do love him no matter what..
i dont mind,i dont care if people were to say whatever they want about me not moving on.
well yes,i can move on..but no i cant get away from not loving him..
bcause 3years is not as 3days,3hours..its not a short period of time for me to let go just like that..
only if i didnt happen to control u on things,for sure we're still us,remain the love as strong as it use to be.. )':
dear solihin,i will never give up on u,seriously i never do..