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Saturday, June 12, 2010.
i'm so emotional now.not depressingly emotional,but somehow i felt happy,much appreciated and much being love.despite of me having flu and sore throat which have yet to cure since the past few days.

today i went to work; * wearing 3/4 dress bb bought for me when he's in KL,with thights.and mind you,that was seriously a random pick.

somehow i expected to meet bb today after i end work.but another somehow i felt that nevermind its ok.let him rest and so i would'nt want to be a person who pesters him to meet me.
and so,when i was on my way out from sentosa,in the express train,i give him a call.just to ask what is he doing.after ended the call,i randomly text him and telling him that i wore *.

so i thought that he would have just replied ok.however i was wrong.
he replied: ler..ayg nk jumpe b eh sebenarnye?
i said: tak la b..ayg saje2 je pkai gini..lagipn ingtkn mane tau b turon keje jumpe yr fren ke..jadi ade jgk masa jmpe ayg kejap ke ape..tapi for today,ayg mmng tak expect pape pn dari b..
him: knp ayg tknk ckp daritadi syg..ayg cm ni,b sedih tau.ayg da ckp pkai cm ni da mcm harapkan nk jumpe b tau..hmm..
me: tak la b..b takya rase bersalahla k..
him: tak la syg..if ayg nk ajak b klua,lainkali ayg ckp je k syg..b kalau nk klua pn tak fikirkan kwn b dulu but b fikirkan ayg dulu..b rase bersalahlah syg..
me: ala b..its ok k b..

and so after i text him i've board the bus home,he replied that he'll msg me in a while.
after which,when i've reached home,i text him again,asking him what is it that he wants to msg me about.
and to my surprise and unexpected reaction,he replied: yg b nk msg tu,b nk bagitau yg b love u so much..
of coz i was so touched that it was so random of him to say that to me.and for the past few days,he's been asking me to takecare of myself.
honestly,i'm afraid if it might be the signs as if something bad will happen.
however his respond was: takde papela syg..b syg sgt kt ayg..da tak slalu b jumpe ayg kn..sbb tu b nk ayg jaga diri..ni baru 1week b masok,ayg da sakit2..b risau tau..
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oh my..only the Almighty knows how touched i was,knowing that his love and care is this much..
and as i mentioned on my facebook status; i know that he hates the word forever.but i just wanna say that i love him so much..and forever..

dear solihin,no one can replace your way of loving me.

(honestly,i've got no intention to show off or to make others envy on my current rship with my bf.my whole point is hereby to make an awareness to each of us that no matter how bad the person have hurt u at times,in the end,you yourself will be the one judging and for sure,brings you no regrets.so lets learn from one another.)