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Wednesday, April 22, 2009.
22.4.09 ; 12:53am

Dear readers,

first and foremost,much apologies if i wasn't around for updates or even on msn.
couple of weeks ago since i was unwell till now,i just don't feel right.yes i've got problems with my health since then,but now,it seems to be all okay..

only now,i really think that i'm not ok.really am not.
i know that this may sounds weird.but i myself don't understand why.i told hubby and he's pretty much worried on my situation and condition.he advice me alot of time to consult a doctor but to my stubborn-ness,i refuse to.i never been afraid to go to the doctor,but in this matter,yes i am.coz i think its better if i go only when really theres the need to.

atfirst,it was abt my unwell-ness.i had stomach cramps,diarrhoea,migrains and body achings.afterall,everything seems to be back fine but unfortunately for awhile though.then,it came back attacking.and when those happened,just recently,i found out that my mood doesnt seem to be on the right track.yes it might be the cause and effect of my menses.however,still i find myself having an unstable behaviour in addition to weird mood.

apologies to my dear hubby coz i've not been communicating much well to him recently.until for some matters of arguement,i really had a hard time argueing..ayg sorry k b..i know you understand..

reason for me to post this up,is to keep you readers inform that when i'm away for quite sometime,means i've got my reasons for my disappearance.
my family,doesnt seem to aware of my unstable behaviour/weird mood periods.well,i guess they never will.
& pls..dont ask me why.coz this is all i can explain for now.
;takecare all.

meanwhile,i really really miss my dear so much.a week since we didnt get to meet but we met just now,for awhile.but i was the one who doesnt spend the short period of time with him properly.i feel like bcos of my condition,i was as if avoiding myself frm talking so much.ohhh how i wish i could turn back the time and spend the short period wisely.hmm..
and when we're about to leave for our separate ways,i dont know why but i just feel like crying.
he was holding on to my hands and never want to let me go.but i pulled,and went off since 963 had arrived):

so nextup,i dont know when will the next update will be.
anyway,just dont get worried on me..god-willing,i can manage.