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Wednesday, June 25, 2008.
okay. that is it.i couldnt get to sleep that easy lastnight.deep in my heart,my mind kept wondering on something.and true enough,somebody close to dear text me to give him a call.so i called that somebody.and that somebody has told me another latest updates on dear's attitude.haiz! non-stop creating nonsense acts! and that somebody has always been pestering me to make up my mind.i know that somebody doesnt meant to psyco me or what.but yea,i know that somebody knows better on whats going on with dear right now.and so..yeah..that somebody told me to decide and if possible,make it before the sch reopens.hmm..and yes..i think this is it.i've made up my mind and i'm prepared actually.haha! since the recent break up,i never had trust dear.yup,not anymore coz whats on during the patching up till now,to me is just a pretend.not me,but him.well,i've had enough i guess.yes i've always say i never give up on him coz i love him.but to think back,whats the use if he's using me as his part time lover?wtf lar boi! what that somebody had told me is right.even that somebody is ashame to get a friend like dear.
this is what roughly that somebody told me;in details dok!:
-dear has been asking for girls number somewhere around their working area.(ohh fcuk!)
-even when he knows that girl is attached,still he wants to keep contact.(giler per boi!)
-dear even told that somebody that he will be going to find more girls to be in his 'scandal' list?(gi mampos uh!)
-get to know a girl at their working area just after they finish working ytd.(mcm cb pe!)
-and dear send that girl till jurong east mrt.(wtf! sanggop siak u!)
-and even on doing that,he asked his friends to accompany.(mrepek pe u! nk kenal pompan,bey ajak kawan teman! u anak lelaki ke anak pompan?takde brani pe mau anta sendiri!)
-most of his working friends shake their head when they see dear's reaction in wanting to know that girl.(stop it siak!)
fuck lar! i thought it would just be only 1 girl thats creating problem in btwn my r'ship.now the truth has been revealed,and more girls is on the list actually.arrrghhh!
so for the now,i'll be a part time lover.haha! yes ar! keje baru dok! ok pe,die klau ble maen2kan hati aku,aku pon nak try maen2kan hati die.amcm?orite pe.haha!amek kau obat! go lar have fun with anyone you want.go lar kenal2 with anyone you like.what i know,whenever u did bad things behind me,you're not what i regard as dear.only when you're with me,den i will regard u as my dear.hahahaha! mau try uh now onwards.see what's next! heh! don't worry,doesnt mean aku tkde prasaan or what,i do have.especially hati saket oi.tapi biarkan je lar eh..if he can do tricks on me,why can't i?..mari kita tgk sapa yang kenaaa.
but still...i'm not too sure actually..hmm...
i love you but i hate you.