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Tuesday, February 14, 2012.
its been so very long since i last update.
so here now today,in collaboration of our FOURTH;
im not showing off. but im sharing.
in terms of love/long distance relationship;
no matter what are the disappointments,hurts,anger;
patience have to always be in you
with honest,trust, sincere and understanding.
Of all the ups and downs,arguements,fights,hurdles and complications,smiles and laughters; we've been through a lot.
The man who listens to my naggings,tolerating with my attitude,entertain my moodswings.food/place cravings yg merepek2..
who brings me up when i'm at my lowest,who understands me despite of my madness.
thanks for your love,appreciating me for who i am,right from the start,until now.
like what we've always say to eachother, "u kalau takde,i confirm ibarat mcm cacat 1 kaki tau"
May Allah be our guidance,
through every moments,
with blessings and many more wonderful and meaningful years together,
Insyaallah.
Im nt looking for someone who has everything,
but to know a person like you, is really amazing. <3
Dearest Bb syg, Happy Fouryears to you and me.
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Sunday, December 25, 2011.
Dear blog,
I deeply apologies for not updating since about 3months ago.
Life has been great so far,alhamdulillah.
Work wise;been hectic,tiring,chaotic,but fun as well.
CIT;been coping well so far..completing the course in Feb12.
Love;we're trying very hard not to argue over mini bits and to keep on understanding
eachother.
....to be continued
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Thursday, September 01, 2011.
its been almost 2 months since i last update.theres for sure so many things that has been happening.
to cut it short,heres the lastest:
when i was working in the afternoon,i received a text frm dayah,asking if me n him have got back together or what. and of coz,i said no. bcos he havent been showing any signs/hints about getting back on track. its just that we've been contacting each other much often like we used to. so with that text frm dayah,i was really shocked to know and furthermore,she was telling me that he has changed his status frm its complicated to in a rship! how can i not be more shocked right!
hah!
so i continue working as per normal,but kept wondering in mind.
and when i reached home,first thing i did was to check my fb. there was a notification under request and was unexpected to know that it was really him who request for a relationship status!
i didnt accept to it that soon. coz the next thing i did was to see his profile and true enough,he changed the status.
and of coz,i was soooo excited that i immediately called dayah and she was just as excited as i am! :))
and so,i then decided to accept the request,and followed by an sms thanking him.
from then on, the way he text was sooo loving that it made me feel that we're on track just like how we use to..
and now that we are.
alhamdulillah! i just cant express how happy i was,to know that he made this decision.
oh ya,supposingly he wanted to really meet me badly today but i'm working so yea,we'll be meeting tmr instead.
i wonder how will our reaction be once we met. hehehe.
like i said,inever giveup onyou seriouslyi neverdo <3
love you dear.
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Thursday, July 14, 2011.
//1400hrs//fact is,he didnt even reply to the text.
so i asked,did u get my text last night?he say he did.
and mentioned that,2 be honest i prefer this way..
i then burst into immediate tears.
also he said,for me,better not now. i prefer this way..i have my freedom.
so?what is it now that i'm wrong??have i done something which clashes with his freedom??
have i???
sigh.
i guess,its time.
for me to step back.
and stop hoping/expecting.
because there wont be anything,
not even a single thing.
maybe this is what u want,to keep leaving me with thousands of wonders and questions.
and maybe this is the reason that u decide to get yrself even busy with work and more work.
ok fine,i'll take a step off all this hopes.
coz u just dont seem to care,
yes u dont.
even if this gonna take months and months for us to meet,
i'll wait.
and i mean it,i wont give up.
if u think this is your way,
i'll have mine too.
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all of sudden,i'm feeling hopeless.it has really been quite sometime since we last met,almost a month.
text him the 3.5 wish.
somehow i was hoping if i would atleast get back a short reply like the month before.
but to no avail.
well..i was disappointed,bursting in tears.
am i too emotional?
was he already fast asleep?
in the text,i mentioned about us,being in almost half the year since he left me alone with what he
has decided way months ago;and that i'm still holding strong even how hard situation was for me to overcome.
...
and its already half an hour since it was send.
yet,no reply,not even a text,nothing,
and worst,i guess now there's no more point for me to be wishing and hoping to meet him anytime soon.
as due to his tight schedule now; no,there won't be.we're not meeting.
i will have to get myself prepared if worst to be enduring for another month/s.
:'(
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Monday, July 04, 2011.
i miss you, i miss us :'(